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sinful_lynx) wrote2009-08-10 06:01 pm
sinful_lynx) wrote2009-08-10 06:01 pm
David + Angst = Booze
Title: The Solution is Always Booze
Fandom: Blood+
Characters/Pairings: David; Julia, Joel, Kai, Lewis, Glade
Rating: PG
Warnings: Spoilers?
Author Note: The first part was kiinda hard to write. Gave me the shivers. xD; Still, I haven't written David before and I've been meaning to. Ah, he's an awesome guy. And his VA shares my b-day. :333 Anyway! Some angsty!David to share.
Summary: It's okay to have no hope here, because booze makes up for all of it.
Disclaimer: I don't own the icon or Blood+
His whole world crashes in a single instant. The dancing flames as that sink ships are the gods laughing, mocking him for putting so much reliance on others... for being weak.
Red Shield cracked, shattered and sank to the bottom of the ocean that night. Most of Red Shield's operatives fell with it, and all hope was lost.
He hasn't talked to Joel since they left him at the hospital. How could he look at the man who placed so much trust and faith in him, only to let him down, let him fall, right before his very own eyes? He doesn't deserve him, doesn't deserve the friend that sweet Joel would still be committed to being. He wouldn't place blame, none of them did, but he knows.
Kai and Lewis are often complaining, telling him what he used to be, but he can't be that person anymore. That person so dedicated to slaying the chirpterans, the person who had a best friend named Joel, who inherited his name and duty from his father, the man who had tried hard to keep innocents out of the fight against Diva and still dragged them under--down into these harsh depths of despair that continuously knock him down whenever an epiphany is about to strike. They don't get it.
Glade still speaks up. His mentor should know, should be able to tell him all the answers, but the answer is always the same. He must find it on his own. He has to find his own strength, crush whatever wall he's put up or he'll never be at peace, but peace doesn't exist.
Julia. Julia... Julia, Julia, Julia. He only knows that she left with Collins, that she's fallen into the limelight of the scientific world and has become poisoned. She, too, was another failure. He could have protected her from it. If he had done better to protect Riku and Kai, the workings of a Chevalier might never have been a focus for her lifetime.
They won't blame him. They don't understand him. They aren't with him. That is simply how his mind works and he refuses to give the last of his friends up to something called destiny any longer. If it's glass and brandy that is his consolation, then so be it. He doesn't need anything but them.
Every night, as he sits there, a bottle in hand, surrounded by more empty ones, this is his only peaceful thought. The thought that he's numb, that he can feel no remorse for his actions or those lost in battle, seems to make everything all right. It's okay to have no hope here, because booze makes up for all of it.
Fandom: Blood+
Characters/Pairings: David; Julia, Joel, Kai, Lewis, Glade
Rating: PG
Warnings: Spoilers?
Author Note: The first part was kiinda hard to write. Gave me the shivers. xD; Still, I haven't written David before and I've been meaning to. Ah, he's an awesome guy. And his VA shares my b-day. :333 Anyway! Some angsty!David to share.
Summary: It's okay to have no hope here, because booze makes up for all of it.
Disclaimer: I don't own the icon or Blood+
His whole world crashes in a single instant. The dancing flames as that sink ships are the gods laughing, mocking him for putting so much reliance on others... for being weak.
Red Shield cracked, shattered and sank to the bottom of the ocean that night. Most of Red Shield's operatives fell with it, and all hope was lost.
He hasn't talked to Joel since they left him at the hospital. How could he look at the man who placed so much trust and faith in him, only to let him down, let him fall, right before his very own eyes? He doesn't deserve him, doesn't deserve the friend that sweet Joel would still be committed to being. He wouldn't place blame, none of them did, but he knows.
Kai and Lewis are often complaining, telling him what he used to be, but he can't be that person anymore. That person so dedicated to slaying the chirpterans, the person who had a best friend named Joel, who inherited his name and duty from his father, the man who had tried hard to keep innocents out of the fight against Diva and still dragged them under--down into these harsh depths of despair that continuously knock him down whenever an epiphany is about to strike. They don't get it.
Glade still speaks up. His mentor should know, should be able to tell him all the answers, but the answer is always the same. He must find it on his own. He has to find his own strength, crush whatever wall he's put up or he'll never be at peace, but peace doesn't exist.
Julia. Julia... Julia, Julia, Julia. He only knows that she left with Collins, that she's fallen into the limelight of the scientific world and has become poisoned. She, too, was another failure. He could have protected her from it. If he had done better to protect Riku and Kai, the workings of a Chevalier might never have been a focus for her lifetime.
They won't blame him. They don't understand him. They aren't with him. That is simply how his mind works and he refuses to give the last of his friends up to something called destiny any longer. If it's glass and brandy that is his consolation, then so be it. He doesn't need anything but them.
Every night, as he sits there, a bottle in hand, surrounded by more empty ones, this is his only peaceful thought. The thought that he's numb, that he can feel no remorse for his actions or those lost in battle, seems to make everything all right. It's okay to have no hope here, because booze makes up for all of it.
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... o-o We're in it too.
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This was so sad though, and I wanted to hug the poor guy. Even though I of course didn't know half of the people mentioned in it (I think I recognized two names?), I still loved it. Your stuff is always so awesome to read. 8D
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D: It really was. Poor David... xD But I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thank you for reading.